Loosing?

You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.

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Ever feel like the weather is reading your heart? Or that maybe you try really hard to hide your feelings yet you're afraid that maybe, just maybe someone out there knows your lying? Put on that front like nothing is wrong?..

I've learned the hard way that keeping things bottled up inside is not the way to go. Emotions piling up over another just gets you overwhelmed. I'm glad to say that over the past year I've learned to let go of my pride and let people in. As scaring as it may seem to be vulnerable I took down the walls.. and by doing so I've made friends with the most amazing girls that I can see always being by my side..

and I have the most amazing boyfriend. I can trust him with so much of my heart but that's the thing with relationships, it's giving the other person the ability to break your heart but trusting them not to. And that's just it, is trust. You can't hold a good relationship with out it. He makes me so happy, it's ridiculous! Of 'course no relationship out there is perfect. There's always gonna be arguing and disagreements, but all of that just makes you stronger.

-Lisa

Mhmm.

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I don't understand this weather. Rain is a total bummer :( I just want this week to go by cause so far I can't find much to look forward to but my weekend. I used to be really excited about school but now it's whateverrr to me because lately I've just been getting by. I fall asleep in class at least 4 times a day -_-" It's embarrassing when the teacher has to wake you up. Ugh, I can't wait for senior year and to be out. High school is not the best of years of your lives..

Although I must say that I adore spending time with the boyfriend. He most def. makes my day at school, even for the short period of time. He's the only boy who has really been able to bring out the better in me and makes me feel indescribable.

-Lisa

Get by.

Something about you feels right.
And I don't know why.
But I feel more comfortable around you,
Than any other person in this world.
Which to me, Means a lot.
So don't let this slip by. I cant let you get by.

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I'm torn to doing the right thing and following my heart. How can doing something wrong feel so right? That's life at it's work, I guess. I'm just scared. I don't want to regret doing anything, but if I haven't done anything wrong than how come I feel this guilt? I'm confused and scared..

-Lisa